Sentiments of an only child

In my entire life I am dependent to my parents, I let them decide on my own, do whatever they say and follow them, I’m an subservient son and that’s how my parents sharpen me up as a person- to be obedient and respectful individual. I’m 20 years old by now and yet I’m still grounded by rules. I love my parents both father and mother, we actually have that close family ties thing, yeah! You read it right! Regardless of the fact that my father is a mile away from us and we seldom meet, the last time he went home is year 2006, so it’s almost six years since we met in particular. Hence, I’m very much close to my mom. I personally extol my parents for being compassionate to my endeavors and aspirations, I once remember my mom who became my personal assistant, road manager and manager in the play I joined before, she also showers me tons of fighting spirit every time I have singing contest. From then on, I could say I relied much my life to her. And now, I’m on my Young Adulthood stage, I want to be independent. I want to explore things and decide on my own. I’m no longer their bunso who always cry before, I am full-grown now, old enough to face the world and dwell its ambiguity. I already graduated from college and passed the nursing board exam but still, I am curbed by rules and regulations. One of it is my 10pm curfew (I can’t recite all, I’m sorry). Most of the time, I have to lie to my parents just to allow me to go home very late, its boorish I know, and I shouldn’t do that. Moreover, I understand the reason why they’re so over protective, it’s because I’m their only son, but I don’t get the idea that they have to decide on my own and be in command of my life. I felt like I’m a toy or a twig flowing in the river, I feel futile. And now, my prevalent predicament is how will I surmount this circumstances without hurting my parents, it would be easier said than done for me and to them as well. I’m yearning for the freedom and independency that I want to reach, I want to come to a decision on my own and learn from my mistakes, I want to grow as a person but how?? That is the HARDEST QUESTION I can’t answer until now. Furthermore, the answer to this dilemma of mine is still vague.

Nurses’ board rating scuffle

When I’m in nursing school, my parents are the focal reason why I push myself to excel in school, I once imagine myself as a NLE Board Topnotcher walking in the aisle, and crowd are proudly clapping as I come up on stage to receive my recognition. But that dream of mine didn’t happen, I passed the board exam but not as dramatic as what I thought. After receiving our Board ratings, friends start to compare their board grades to others. And now one question popped out in my mind, does board rating really matters? Is it just or fair if the board rating will be the basis in hiring new staff nurses in different hospitals in the country? Is it fair also if NLE will quantify a nurse’s potential and competence? Way back in college I always exert my 101% effort, I also confined myself in some of the pages in my nursing books reading them from cover to cover. I thought it would be enough or a great way for me to be on TOP, I didn’t graduate with honors but I’m proudly to say that I was able to top our exams in our review center where I enrolled after graduation. Let’s talk about my board rating I got a grade which is far from the top 10 posts. At least, I passed. Actually, I’m disappointed to myself because I didn’t nailed NP4 and NP5 those two subjects pulled my average down, but after that I moved on. I realized that it is not the true measure of my skills as a nurse, and as a human being as well. Just so you know, I’m one of those UNEMPLOYED NURSES, just like other board topnotchers and cumlaudes out there. Now you judge, what’s your point of view? Does NLE rating really matters? In my opinion, NO! I think there’s misconception about having a high board rating compared to those who didn’t. This misconception is built since our parents enrolled us to preparatory school from then on we thought that those top students in the class will be given more favor from teachers, they we’re given too much exposure in school co-curricular activities, because teachers has a immense expectation on them without seeing those talents hidden among those who are not on top. (I’m not against the teachers, it’s just I was developed in this kind of fallacy). On that note, I think it is not proper to estimate a person and rank them who are the best and not. On these hard years; character, skills and capabilities weighs more than board ratings. On the flip side, I have a friend who is a staff nurse in a tertiary hospital here in Laguna with a passing rate of 75% flat. But still, she excels in her field and she was once awarded as an employee of the month. So, on this matter, I could wrap up that board rating will not verify the success of a nurse; it’s how a nurse deal and persevere regardless of the misfortune in employment. I believe after reading half of this post you will judge me. But don’t get me wrong, I’m not bitter or what. I just want others to grasp the realism. Nursing is not about being theoretically wise. Its description is further than that. The embodiment of the Nursing Profession is CARE and COMPASSION, once you have these two qualities you can nurse and help other people. These imperative qualities will surely help you to be successful in your “calling”. So be ready, life has many things to offer.